Kusum

PATA NAHI    i t might seem simple, even casual.  But those two words have become my escape hatch, a way to distance myself from the noise of questions like...  Why am I feeling this way? Why can’t I just express myself the way I used to? Where did I go wrong?  In some ways, saying “pata nahi” is a shield. A way to avoid the deeper questions I don’t have answers to.  It’s a momentary pause in the face of everything I don’t understand about myself or the world. Over time, I stopped talking to friends, pulled away from those closest to me. And in that silence, I started wondering  “ Do I even have my own thoughts anymore? Or am I just a blend of the people I talk to? ”  It’s strange, but I realized something while sitting with that question Maybe, that’s just how it works for everyone. We all borrow bits of each other’s beliefs, opinions, and experiences. We are, in a way, shaped by the people we interact with. But here’s the thing  I wasn’t e...